I got hit with a singletail last night for the first time. I’m one that is all about the thuddy-ness of toys and sting doesn’t really do it for me, but I had no expectations and no idea it was going to happen until it hit.
It felt like streaks of fire on my back. I’ve never felt anything that burned the same way. And it didn’t disappate immediately or on the next hit, so I felt like I had little flames on different parts of my back.
Unfortunately my pain tolerance is really low at the moment because I have not played with any regularity pretty much since last summer, and I ended up whimpering and jerking away, as much as I could being attached by the leather mittens to the support beam in my house. But the sensation was incredible and I think I want to go there again, maybe after I am more warmed up and flying.
I’m also going to a BIO play party this Saturday and will be playing in public for the first time in my life. The idea used to freak me out until I went to “Cirque de Sade” and watched a little bit of what was going on in the dungeon. Maybe it’s the fact that I can feel the energy between the people who are playing but it made me want to try it.
I’m also one for not wanting to let fear stop me, even if it’s something I don’t have any interest in. Unrational fear is always a challenge that I try to stand up to, and so – twilight will be flogged in public. I’m glad that I got to choose my “weapon” as it were, and I requested that I be blindfolded. You know, because if I can’t see them, they can’t see me. Just call me ostrich.
Edited to add: I forgot the snake bite kit (ouch!) and the zapping electricity thing. This is why I shouldn’t write things first thing in the morning before the daily injection of caffeine.