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July 20, 2008Erin 1 Comment »One of the things I hate about this new drug-taking state of mine is that I no longer can trust my body. I’ve been exhausted for the past week but I do not know if I’m just tired because I have to get up at 4am, or if I’m back to feeling depressed again. I don’t have any energy to cook – I even managed to get to the grocery store tonight and buy some yummy things for dinner, but then I napped for 4 hours and all I want to do now is go back to bed. Eating? who needs it?
Am I tired, like anyone would be with my schedule?
Or do I need to up my prescription because while it worked for the first four or five weeks, it seems to be petering out?
I don’t know. But I do know that having felt so-called ‘normal’ again, I’m not happy (no pun intended) about feeling down again.
So far my thought process has been to wait until after I get back from DC, near the end of August, before making any decision, but that will be subject to change if I continue a downward spiral.
Posted on July 21st, 2008 at 4:26 pm
Hey hun,
First things first (because I wish someone had said it to me when I was going through this): it’s normal. Try to remember that depression or anxiety isn’t something that comes in black and white. It’s a whole lot of shades of gray.
Something that helped me was thinking of it like the tide… it ebbs and flows. Some days, weeks, months are better than others. Recognize it, acknowledge it, then do your best to deal with it, as much as you’re able to at this moment. Because this moment is all that matters.
Hugs,
J.