Do-over, please.

I need a new job. Badly. Badly badly badly. I promised myself when I went back to school that I wouldn’t end up doing the same job again and what did I do when I graduated? I took the easy option, and now here I am almost two years later and I. want. out.

Thing is, I don’t want to end up doing the same type of job but just for a different company. I want to do something different. Something not front-line customer service based. I just feel that, after having done the same type of job for the past 14 years, I have lost other options.

Sure, I could go back to school and get another degree in something. But – what? I have looked around the websites and nothing really grabs me, except for one diploma program that is not going to land me a job at the end of it.

I need a job that pays approximately the same as I am being paid now, because I have financial obligations that need to be met and I will not be able to do that with a reduction in salary.

And the biggest problem is that I am so exhausted from dealing with my depression that I feel trapped and cannot see a way out. Any path that has potential just feels like so much hard work with not enough light at the end of tunnel.

I think I would like to be 18 again. Can I have a do-over, please?

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