Do-over, please.

I need a new job. Badly. Badly badly badly. I promised myself when I went back to school that I wouldn’t end up doing the same job again and what did I do when I graduated? I took the easy option, and now here I am almost two years later and I. want. out.

Thing is, I don’t want to end up doing the same type of job but just for a different company. I want to do something different. Something not front-line customer service based. I just feel that, after having done the same type of job for the past 14 years, I have lost other options.

Sure, I could go back to school and get another degree in something. But – what? I have looked around the websites and nothing really grabs me, except for one diploma program that is not going to land me a job at the end of it.

I need a job that pays approximately the same as I am being paid now, because I have financial obligations that need to be met and I will not be able to do that with a reduction in salary.

And the biggest problem is that I am so exhausted from dealing with my depression that I feel trapped and cannot see a way out. Any path that has potential just feels like so much hard work with not enough light at the end of tunnel.

I think I would like to be 18 again. Can I have a do-over, please?

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4 Responses to Do-over, please.

  1. Jessie says:

    Work at UBC – I get frustrated sometimes, but all in all it’s a good gig. Lots of different admin positions, but it’s the general environment and people that make it good.

  2. Rachel says:

    I second that- and ubc is a really good employer. I think you would make similar money. But I don’t know if an admin type of job would make you any happier. I guess it could depend a lot on the particular setting. And it sounds like a change would be nice?

    Oh, and I know a few people who have ended up with permanent jobs at ubc by starting out as sort of longer-term temps for ubc. I think it’s called Staff Finders.

    Also I’m really sorry about your depression. Recently I’ve been struggling with anxiety (I mean, bigger than normal anxiety, problem anxiety) for the first time, and it sucks so bad. But now I finally have a better grasp on what it’s like for you, my sister, the various people I know with these problems. So, you know. That part’s good I guess!

  3. erin says:

    It’s true that you really don’t know what ANXIETY is like until you experience it for yourself. It drives me crazy when people tell me “Oh, I get anxious about things too!” Um, no. It’s different, thanks! That said, I wish you didn’t know. 🙁

    I will look into Staff Finders. It sounds like a good place to start. And I think I would kick ass at admin – my craziness for organization and my meticulousness for detail would probably be assets in that kind of environment, y/y?

  4. Rachel says:

    You’re totally right. You would kick admin’s ass. And I bet getting a little dressed up for work and having normal 9-5 hours would be fun for you too!

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